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(2008) my grandfather's farm, Burnstad, North Dakota

 

 

September 2008:
 
When I was 12, I responded to an ad on the back of a Superman comic book: "Become A Writer. Send $4.95 today." I can see myself now, sitting in my room, a small packet having arrived in the mail, and a new Hawthorne about to be unleashed upon the world.
 
But - I couldn't believe it - out of the packet slides that essential element for all great writers... a tablet of paper! You've got to be kidding me! Hey, but wait! there's also a 10-page report, "How To Become A Writer And Earn Big Money!" And, don't you know, it's filled with sure-fire tips on how to knock 'em dead at Doubleday and MacMillan, like "write on a subject familiar to you" and "know your audience."
 
Well, that was more wisdom than I could take in one day, so I packed it all up for "return to sender." While I was a little miffed at the hucksters promoting this scam, in that moment, I also realized something important: a writer needs to have something to say, something worthwhile to say - and it suddenly occurred to this 12 year-old ingenue that maybe I didn't have much of note to say. I will tell you honestly that this sentiment has remained somewhat intact for 45 years; and, while I've written many things over the past decades, generally, I have not featured my own opinions very much but have presented the work of others.
 
I'm not sure why, but that doesn't seem to be enough anymore - so allow me to seek the indulgence of my Word Gems readers as I begin a new series of articles, "Personal Statements," on a variety of subjects. These will feature not only my own views, my own take on the great issues of history, but, in this process, I will also introduce to you individuals from my past who've helped me along my way.
 
As you scan the titles of the many articles below, you will find that I begin in a somewhat ordinary manner. Notice the seemingly innocuous tributes to my parents, favorite uncle, and grandparents; but, this is meant to disarm you, to lead you in gradually - do not be deceived. A more careful study of subsequent titles will introduce you to subjects of high moment, of the most compelling sort! those which I call the Great Ideas, the Universal Questions, of Life.
 
It is my purpose to so construct a title and introduction, almost as a challenge to you, one that makes the dare... "read this or die!"
 
Have a look for yourself. See what you think. If I've done my job, you might find some topics that you will not be able to pass by.
Best regards,
 
Wayne P. Becker
P.S. There is a certain sense of continuity that I've built into the structure of these articles; meaning, if possible, you'll want to read them in sequence; especially, those constituting that provocative sub-series, Love In The AfterLife.

 

 

 

(1953) at Grandpa's farm... hey... how d'ya like those cowboy boots...

 

 

 

1.  Personal Statement: My Dad: Humanitarian Service At The Risk of One's Life - the agricultural executive and his cow phone - ND blizzard winds can be capricious, sometimes roaring full-speed, but then suddenly dying to a whimper, only to explode again; a simple one-mile excursion could very easily turn deadly. I was quite young then and did not understand the dynamics of all attendant risks in play. But when Dad returned and entered the house, I was shocked, and I still remember how I felt. His face was covered in ice; ice on his eyebrows; ice in his hair; ice on his cheeks; his face, a deathly white. He was clearly suffering from exposure - the high-octane juice: "If you're not dead yet, you'll probably survive" - my own, private, archetypal image of the classic suffering servant. click here to access article

 

 

"we trespassed, field to field; you, glad of my arms each time a fence
challenged us; I, always held you longer than it took to help you over"

 

 

2.  Personal Statement: My Uncle Joe: The Korean War: Fire and Ice - the uninvited guests below the newlyweds' suite - General Van Fleet believed that the morale of his soldiers would decline unless they were actively engaged in regular operations; for this reason, Van Fleet encouraged the taking and retaking of strategically unimportant hills. These "moral builders," bloody, never-decisive fire-fights, lasting the better part of two years, claimed 60,000 Allied casualties as "peace-talks" wore on - Today Congress' war-making authority has been effectively delegated to the President, who now acts as a "king," one man making momentous decisions alone! And if that person is unscrupulous, or incompetent, what check-and-balance will reign him in? The Founders wanted the committing of US troops to a field of battle to be a complicated affair, an action requiring the debate and approval of many thinking heads. Congress was meant to be a kind of jury which would analyze the facts and determine the truth of a matter. But we have unconstitutionally eliminated this procedural safeguard, an entire level of accountability, which would tend to keep us from not only merely unnecessary wars but, worse, ones started for someone's private gain, one's hidden agenda, trumped up as necessary patriotic action required for the national defense. click here to access article

 

 

all that I know of love, I learned from you;
love's sacred instruction,
a lesson plan designed just for me, one that only you could teach;
in mere moments, long ago, learned... from you!

"take these arms, these lips, I never use them,
fever all through the night;
fever, till you sizzle, what a lovely way to burn" (61)

 

 

3.  Personal Statement: An Introduction to The Scientific Evidence for The AfterLife - "I'm not allowed to tell you too much about what it's like over here, because some of you might try to end your mortal lives just to get here a little faster" - The AfterLife has nothing to do with religion. It doesn't matter whether one is an atheist, an agnostic, a Catholic, Protestant, or whatever, because under hypnosis, all speak of and describe the same place - “To die is not tragic. To live in your world is tragic. To die is to enjoy freedom of the spirit, which has been imprisoned behind the bars of the material body. There is not in your world one artist who could capture with his paints some of the glories of my world. There is not one musician who could record some of the glories of the music sphere with your notes. There is not one writer who could describe in physical words the beauty of parts of this world. We have flowers such as you have never seen, we have colors such as your eye has never beheld, we have scenes and forests, we have birds and plants, we have streams and mountains. You have nothing to compare them with. And you will be able to enjoy them.” click here to access article

 

 

why men-in-love speak of their romantic partners in terms of
 goddess, worship, adore, my life, and my better half; 
and why she does not often reciprocate in kind! (37)

 

 

4.  Personal Statement: My Mom: Big Doors Swing On Small Hinges: Lessons From My Mother That Changed My Life - The Dairy Princess and the true test of love - the tiny moppet who would not let go - the pantheon, the home of the gods - the conversation turned to the subject of their own dairy operation, and I was about to be introduced to a concept previously foreign to me. This farmer’s wife did not help her husband with any farm work, including the milking: “Because I didn’t marry him to milk cows!” came the almost-defiant retort! - a new welcoming sign referring to North Dakota as “Legendary.” To this I would only add the clarification that North Dakota itself is not legendary, but some of its people are. click here to access article

 

 

"A star breaks, arcs down the night. See my lips move, making your name. It is so still, 
so still. I am sure that you must hear me; when a star falls, I shall wish for you" (46)

 

 

5.  Personal Statement: Grandpa's Farm: Places In The Heart: Geography as Destiny -  "If a place could be a person, this place would be me" - my dear sister, Alice - the people who invented the word "legendary" - hanging upside down, dangling, from the back of a tractor - the little white school house - late night conversations while planting wheat - There’s a story about the ancient Jews, conquered by the Babylonians, and taken hundreds of miles away from Jerusalem. While living far from their homeland, these captives, in their prayers and worship, as expressed in their writings, remembered with great affection the land of their fathers, even to the extent that the rocks and dirt of that ancestral place would be precious to them. click here to access article

 

 

"the most vivid dream of my life, a baby girl, about two years-old, playfully ambling about. I hear the words that I have never forgotten, very clear words that often invade and pierce my consciousness: Daddy, Daddy, please tell me the story, again, about how much you loved Mommy!" (61, 62, 63)

 

 

6.  Personal Statement: War: Part II: A Train of Unforeseen Circumstances  - Jason, my friend, part-time rock band drummer, but also Sioux Medicine Man - was the Revolutionary War necessary? Canada received its independence less than 100 years after we got ours, but without firing a shot! - in search of a better way to world peace - this evolved soul is very non-combative, very humble, very non-threatening, and non-competitive in his spirit. In his presence, I feel my own spirit expanding as I am introduced to points of view previously unknown - "War involves in its progress such a train of unforeseen circumstances that no human wisdom can calculate the end." click here to access article

 

 

Summerland, the World of the Yellow Rose, is the ultimate promise of a new beginning; the ultimate second chance and fresh page; the ultimate celebration of a new life together; the ultimate mending of a rift, the conciliatory persuasion of, "Dear Sweetheart, let's just start all over again, ok?" (63)

 

 

7.  Personal Statement: Love In The AfterLife: The Love Story of Elmere and Franklin: Summerland, Where Dreams Come True  - He goes and gets himself killed in World War I; she never marries and, 75 years later, passes to the Next Life. Will she find Franklin after such a long time? - Summerland is earth-like because many of our feelings, hopes, and dreams will still be earth-bound when we get there; because we will need a place to do earth-like things for awhile! - bike riding in the next world - "There is no doubt among psychoanalysts... [they] vehemently deny that there can be [true] love without sex" - if you have no lover now in this world, you will, if you so desire, very likely meet someone in Summerland with whom to share romance; and, together, you two will explore the meaning of romantic love... in that paradise that is Summerland! click here to access article

 

 

"My Dear, O My Lost! I sweep aside the rubble of our years to see you clear of their shadow.
I have looked upon you too long, and with so much love, that strangers can see you in my face!"

 

 

8.  Personal Statement: THE GRANDFATHER: Killing Ourselves Laughing: The Way We Were: Worshipping The Goddess Of Labor  - the Grandpa and the war dance; or was he trying to make it rain? - marching out of hell together - why did the boy cross the fence? - the face of evil on a good man - Uncle Bud and the tinker's damn - we learn from Abraham Maslow that all of one's energies, during times of crises, are marshaled to achieve the first priority, that of simple survival. And in that process of trying to stay alive, new definitions of morality are forged: work and production, industry and self-discipline, fortitude and a no-nonsense disposition, all of these can form a distorted view of life and reality, and become the highest and most revered principles. click here to access article

 

9.  Personal Statement: Love In The AfterLife: The Story of Della: The Bride Who Did Not See Her Husband Off To War - this new bride's GI-husband was leaving for WWII, but she could not bring herself to kiss him goodbye, but only wave from the balcony; 70 years later she would understand why - the Granite Club and the polite request - the forbidden girl in the farmhouse - "It is wrong to think that love comes from long companionship and persevering courtship. Love is the offspring of spiritual affinity and unless that affinity is created in a moment, it will not be created for years or even generations." - Della came to see, 60 years after the fact, that her marriage to Jack was nothing more than an association based on utility, mutual convenience; they each needed something from the other, support and comfort in a hostile world; most marriages are of this sort. click here to access article

 

 

"I want to marry you not because you're beautiful, smart, and
perfect; it's because, when I'm with you, I don't feel alone" (37)

 

 

10.  Personal Statement: How To Raise a Crop of Valedictorians: What Aunt Mag and Betty Sperle Knew and Most of us Don't - how to give your child a superior mind - Benjamin Bloom, one of the most influential educators of the 20th century, presented important research in his book, All Our Children Learning, wherein he stated emphatically that all normal children, with so-called average intelligence, can achieve A's in any subject, if only they can be given the individual tutorial care needed to help them over the rough spots! - "there's someone coming through for you... I feel a mother's soul vibration... it's your mother's sister... Magdelane." click here to access article

 

 

William Butler Yeats: "But O that I were young again And held her in my arms!" (63)

 

 

11.  Personal Statement: True Confessions: Individuation: You Are Not A True Person Until You Think Your Own Thoughts  - when I was 17, one simple question from Dad would send me careening and crashing, spinning out of orbit, send me around the world, away from home and hearth, for decades -  "this rage in my heart shut down my emotions, my true feelings, separated me from my true self... and from the people in my life who meant most to me" - "It is time to grow up now, you cannot be a man, you cannot even be a true person, if you do not begin to think your own thoughts; because, there is something immoral about denying your own judgment, and living according to someone else's script. And even if you are wrong, you must still do this, even if you are the only one, in your family, in your community, or in the universe, the only one who thinks as you think, because your very sense of personhood is at stake here." click here to access article

 

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Do you believe in something you've never seen before?
the sacred status of One Person; you cannot be closer to her than that! (37)

 

 

12.  Personal Statement: True Confessions II: There Is Something Immoral About Denying Your Own Judgment  -  Doc Goodman, Carrie's Dad, would read the church newspaper during mass, such a radical idea for me then! hey, mister, you can't read a newspaper in church! - internal vs. external guidance systems - the universe and the big smiley face! - children need the freedom to think, as the spirit moves them; and while guidance might be a good thing, especially for younger children, when one approaches majority age, it is quite unwise to attempt to force a young adult to tow a particular view. Very unwise. Each child, if he or she is to become a fully functioning adult, must develop a keen sense of personal autonomy and independent thinking. The harder Dad pushed, the harder I had to push back, just to maintain my own respect. click here to access article

 

 

"her name was Ann, and I'll be damned" (37);
never worry that you might lose him to the JelloGirl, 
that is not possible - you cannot lose yourself (26)

 

13.  Personal Statement: Love In The AfterLife: Part 1: The Troubadour and the Wedding Song: What Is The Reason For Falling In Love?  - when you find that Special One, the time for choosing will be over, the time for an emotionless weighing of debits and credits of one girl versus another - this kind of love, this sense of One Person, this harmonic interplay of energies, this awareness of soul-connection, this deep union on all levels, body, soul, mind, and spirit, is everything that your heart yearns for; you were created to yearn for this - and when you are finally with her, and hear that cooing tone of delight, a singular delight expressed just for you; when you sense that transcendent familiarity, a sense that she is so much like you, that she is you; you will know, at long last, in Union with her, that you have Arrived, at your Destination, your True Home... do this, or die - "the two halves instinctively, because they are two halves, must recognize one another... the real love is so magnetic, so overwhelming." click here to access article

 

 

"In my life, I love you more!"
the meaning of the Cooing Melodic Tone;
that impertinent little nuisance-in-peddlepushers
who grew up to be the most beautiful girl in the world;
the one who now bewitches, body and soul (26)

 

 

14.  Personal Statement: Part I: "Lies, Damned Lies" and Politics -" Here [on Our Side], no one glories in being a leader, whereas in your world, you do get this sort of glorification of the individual [leader]; the first thing a person must learn here, if they are to progress, is to lose this idea of self-importance. Those who are really progressed on This Side never, never, give that impression, because it is not even in their nature to appear, or want to appear, important." - "Why should we doubt that to see sparkling love for oneself in the dancing eyes of a Beloved may be the most profound mystical experience, the closest we shall come to God, in this life, and, possibly, even beyond?" - Doreen has never "forgiven herself" for her tragic past, has no mental conception of self-love. Ever tormented, her body, anorexic, she eats hardly enough to keep a little bird alive; and if she were to eat more than this, she will vomit; she will not heat her house in wintertime, as she feels she does not deserve to be warm; she cannot sleep, begins to drug herself at 4 PM for the evening, to escape another day, only to rise before the sun, for another lonely, early walk. click here to access article

 

15.  Personal Statement: Part II: "Lies, Damned Lies" and Economics - "The art of economics consists in looking not merely at the immediate but at the longer effects of any act or policy; it consists in tracing the consequences of that policy not merely for one group but for all groups. Nine-tenths of the economic fallacies that are working such dreadful harm in the world today are the result of ignoring this lesson." - "the Germans and Japanese built new factories after the Allies bombed them; and now, they have the most modern factories and out-do us. I guess the American and British bombers did the Axis Powers a huge favor when we pummeled them into the stone age... well, maybe we should just bomb our own factories, and share this wealth!" - there are only two economists in history, with all the rest as mere commentary - capitalism, the unequal distribution of wealth; socialism, the equal distribution of misery -  click here to access article

 

 

 
"It is strange, this my need of you; yesterday I gathered
seashells, but I had no one to show them to." (28)

 

 

16.  Personal Statement: My Dear Grandma Becker, The Undimmed Light in the Farmhouse: Awareness As Life Itself: The Grandmother Who Saved Me  -  "Success comes not from being tense, but ready... not being set, but flexible... It is being wholly and quietly alive, aware and alert, ready for whatever may come" - "If you have lived with unconditional love early in life, things can get very bad later in life, and you will still be able to cope with it. If you have experienced unconditional love once, it will last for your whole life-time. It does not have to be from your father or mother who may not be capable of giving it because they themselves have never received it" - spiritual teachers sometimes distill the entire purpose of our coming to this world as that of growing into a state of greater awareness! Implicit within this instruction is the view of the universe as one of abundance... there is no shortage or lack of any truly good thing... what we need and require is all about us... if only we had eyes to see! click here to access article

 

 

What did Emily see? (25);
negotiating the Ultimate Human Suffering,
Separation from a Destined Lover (28)

 

 

17.  Personal Statement: Wealth Creation and Preservation: F.A. Hayek's The Road To Serfdom - the Rule of Law is the legal embodiment of freedom - political correctness is an attempt at censorship by those who cannot bear to hear the truth - "Our German scientists are better than your German scientists" - legislative gridlock is an American achievement not a defect, not something to overcome - socialists pray for crises, and when they are able to do so, will exacerbate them - why did the most cultured civilization on earth, Germany of the 19th century, later welcome to power, by democratic process, the darkest forces of totalitarianism? - one of the great universal themes of life is that of hope, confidence in the future, without which civilization dies... click here to access article

 

18.  Personal Statement: My Dear Grandparents: Ma & Pa Marquart: The Sacramental Rites of Familial Love  - "There are two very strong women coming through for you. I have not known this kind of strength of personality before! They will not let me go" - Elizabeth Kuhn's family fled the ominous gathering storm of European socialism. Their perspicacity and prescience, reluctantly, led them to abandon long-established farms, fields, orchards, and houses - In mere days, Ma and Pa lost four sons! all of their sons! and one daughter, Agnes - By this sharing of bread and creamed-coffee, taken in a saucer, in the ancient traditional manner, I was being baptized into the fellowship of Ma's most sacred memories of familial and societal joy - Dear Word Gems readers: I have a hope, a prayer, for you... that someone will love you this way. click here to access article

 

 

 

"since you've gone, I've been lost without a trace" (37)
 

 

19.  Personal Statement: Things You Don't Wanna Know: The Story of A Good Little Boy: A Case of Mistaken Identity: I Can't Imagine Love Without You - "Thank you so much for coming. Mom said that she refused to die... until you came!" - Nothing is static. People can change when they want to change. And whether we linger on lower levels, or desire to become something more, it's all a matter of a "state of mind, a state of awareness, a consciousness" - Stevie Wonder: "One Atlantis summer's night" - "I felt just free of everything. I'm no one's wife, mother, or daughter. I am myself, alone" - Pathologically, he stands aloof from her; effectively, rejects her first, before she can reject him! - Dear Heart, where did you get the idea, the self-concept, that God doesn't love you enough... you, of all people... click here to access article

 

Supergirl and the secret identity (13)

 

20.  Personal Statement: My Neighbors, Felix & Gladys: Saying Yes To Another Person's Being  - Dad and Felix are vaccinating calves; but, suddenly, one slips from their clutches - "dusk time, the shadows fall, into the timeless time of all" - the wind is so cold today, whipping across the icy glass. I see my young cousin now, all bundled up against the freezing gale. I have been racing, dramatic stops, flying shards of ice, trying to impress - "In saying no to the pain of unlove, we block the pathways through which love flows in the body, and so we wind up severing our connection to life itself" - this rage in my heart would plunge me into a kind of spiritual darkness for many years... blinding me... separating me... from the good person that I was... severing me from something else, most important in my life... can't remember what, or who, it is... my rage has suffocated it... almost within reach... not quite apprehended... to exceed my mental grasp for some years to come... I am so blinded ... so isolated and alone... so terribly cut off... from myself - "Real love rejoices in another person’s very existence. It is saying yes to another’s being” - heart energy as most rare orchid... click here to access article

 

portal-of-entry to The Mystery (28);
the orchid and the meaning of The Dazzling Darkness (26)

 

21.  Personal Statement: How To Know If You Belong To A Cult: Why The Lying Teacher Always Comes Dressed As A Lamb - What Ike and JFK tried to tell us - as Henry Kissinger said, sometimes the whole world really is against you - finding freedom in an unfree world - the Beast and the False Prophet, and other fun guys - "Why did we allow ourselves to go through that? Why did we let them tell us that we were no good? Why did we put up with all of the disrespect? Why didn't we just walk away?" - Because of the spiritual emptiness in their lives, these monster-hearts, with their misguided personal searches for love and happiness, will be attracted to positions of power, which, they believe, will make them happy - the gentle St. Francis of Assisi, this friend of animals and nature, one of my heroes of history, is a most tragic figure, a bloodied victim of vicious and political designs. The most famous story of him may be that of his interaction with a wolf which had been terrorizing a village. St. Francis represents naked and vulnerable sacrificial love in this dark world... click here to access article

 

22.  Personal Statement: Things You Don't Wanna Know: Saving the Scripture from Superstition: How Literalism Has Ruined the Spiritual Message of the World's Greatest Book! - does The Almighty really need to be defended? is God so fragile, so delicate, that he cannot bear to have one of us poor schmucks "down here" disagree with his truth? - "grace" means "you are enough"! that you, yourself, just by yourself, alone, are worth more than the entire universe - how many know that St. Paul, publically, before the whole church, called Peter a hypocrite? so much for the infallible Peter! - “When people defend their world view, they are not defending reason, or God, or an abstract system; they are defending their own fragile sense of security. It is as instinctive as defending one's own body from attack" - God is Light; which means that it is his nature to reveal himself; but only when we are ready. click here to access article

 

"the unspoken pledges of the soul" (26)
 

 

23.  Personal Statement: Part 1: Forgiveness, The Final Battle: What I Learned From Father John Kuhn - to forgive means to give ahead of time... to be ready to forgive, no matter what comes up; even before the offence occurs - Jesus, the Master Teacher, employed the analogy of "Living Water," an artesian well, to illustrate the positive energy within our own divine souls which might bubble-up to the surface of our consciousness - a fish doesn't know that it lives in water, as it is utterly common and natural to it; so, too, was forgiveness meant to be second-nature to us - "Problems cannot be solved at the same level of awareness that created them" - forgiveness has nothing to do with a gritting of the teeth, or "trying very hard to be spiritual"; in fact, if you employ such effort, all you'll have for your trouble is more identification with grievance; more disconnection from one's essential self, and you'll end up feeling worse, with more internal dissonance - in the "dark night of the soul, it is always three o'clock in the morning" - in a few moments, someone like a Father John Kuhn can teach you all that you need to know about forgiveness... click here to access article

 

 

Why does absence from her pain me so?
It's that exuding Joy! 
that sense about her of ever wanting to rejoice with me!
of being so happy, just to see me, to be with me! (61)

 

 

24.  Personal Statement: Do Genetics Influence Homosexuality? dedicated to my cousin - "There are three camps: the first, solely a function of nurture; another, the result of genetics; a third takes a middle road" - "He said that virtually every animal species that has been studied, from sheep to fruit flies, has a small minority of individuals who demonstrate homosexual activity" - "i am a homosexual who is living in an islamic country. i did not chose to be gay, how ridiculous it is to chose to be gay in an islamic country, because the punishment of homosexuality in islam is just DEATH" - "the Spartans used homosexuality as part of their military training. Every young man would have an adult lover who would teach him the arts of war" - "If you can't make a male attracted to other males by cutting off his penis, castrating him and rearing him as a girl, then how likely is any social explanation of male homosexuality?" click here to access article

 

the glowing deep purple (32)
"Heaven knows how much I love you!" (37)

 

25.  Personal Statement: Love In The AfterLife: The Soulmate Story of Norma and Richard: Why Destined Lovers Fail To Recognize Each Other - what would happen if she somehow were to merge with one's own healthy self-image? If that were to happen, loving her would be as easy as loving oneself... it might be the same thing! - "I have nowhere to go until my prayer is answered; nor do I want to. I shall remain, you may assuredly know, faithful to you, in anticipation of seeing you once again... for the first time" - "Norma advised: A soulmate is one you might not recognize at first. She might be around you earlier in life, but you might not see her! You might go away, and all will seem different” - "The god that we serve really doesn't like us very much. He ignores us. So, we beat on our drums in order to get his attention" - "Come to me. Get away with me, and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace" - these words, "I am you," mean to signify an eternal principle; but, paradoxically, instead of etched in granite, are here inscribed on the evanescent canvas of a frosted pane... click here to access article

 

 

why Eve was not created with Adam;
"and God said, you shall die, you shall surely die... without her!" (37)

 

 

26.  Personal Statement: Love In The AfterLife: Soulmate, Myself: The Story of The French Girl Denise, The Perfect Resume: Everything a Man Could Want, But She's Not You - I remember a sensation of emptiness within myself! This is not the way it happens in the movies - Denise truly was "the perfect resume"; a genuinely good person; sweet, a special kind of sweetness resident in the French female, a frequently-occurring trait of those whose culture deifies romantic love - while fine attributes are wonderful, and always in demand, these will all come in time, a normal function of soul development; but what will not come in time is this sense of deep connection with another - I almost fell over, so attractive was she to me; my knees, as per the proverb, did turn to jello, and I could hardly stand! - it's about that transcendent sense of familiarity; it's about entering The Mystery, with her; it's about feeling that you have finally "come home," that True Home, which is what she will be to you  - even in the midst of that "kiss of death," his heart will yearn and mourn for you. Never worry that you will lose him; you cannot lose yourself - he has seen the Ultimate Beauty Bare; the JelloGirl cannot compete with that - she will fly you to the moon, beyond the solar system, and into the vast Dazzling Darkness of interstellar space - she is a little bit sassy sometimes though... click here to access article

 

 

 

"you were born together, and together you shall be, forevermore";
"the real love is so magnetic, so overwhelming,
whether in this life or the next, it comes only once!" (37)

 

 

27.  Personal Statement: Part II: Valedictorian Super-Mom: What Betty Marquart Sperle Knows and Most of Us Don't - "Every one of our 12 children could read before they started school; you see that row of 20 books? Lisa (today a chemical engineer) read every one of those before the first grade!" - the quiet farmer, the closet intellectual: "Don't I get any credit in this?" - "Five of my kids were valedictorians in their senior class" - Betty had created a learning environment in which it was ok to experiment; ok to fail; ok to make mistakes; ok to try again... no condemnation... no "original sin" to work off... no guilt-trip... no self-loathing - the ancient Greeks drew a distinction between education and training. Education was for a free man! Training was for a slave! - I couldn't make a mistake around her. Whatever good thing I wanted to do or accomplish, that's all that was important; don't worry about mistakes, they don't matter, you just go ahead and try your best - true education is a process bordering on the other-worldly! something that allows a Soul to feel its own Freedom; a process by which one's Essential Self blossoms into an Independent Person. Education is a fanning of the Fire within! It creates a thirst and hunger to know, to have, and to become, regarding all that which is good in life. click here to access article

 

 

the story of Agnes and David:
"this once-pesky little girl with freckles, standing before him, 
awash in tears, her heart so overcharged;
she, to whom his Soul, he now perceives, 
has always been... married!" (37)

 

 

28.  Personal Statement: Love In The AfterLife: The Perfect Storm of Ultimate Human Suffering: Exploring Cosmic Meaning in Separation from a Soulmate Lover: Making Your Music Pure - "A soulmate bond is not a conventional emotional relationship... the most powerful soul-level connection... you just can't get over it ... creates a tsunami of pain... you miss your partner every minute ... a torture of aching and needing... the pain doesn’t lessen... a bereavement... feels as if your heart will burst out of your chest and fly to your true partner... beyond anything experienced before. If you fight it, or try to stay apart, the pain, anguish, and confusion, will show you just how special this bond is"- "If my wife goes to the bazaar without my permission, I will kill her. This is our culture" - "Laughing together is the height of eroticism" - "I can never live so much as a single day in which the music in my heart is not dominant. If I am to live with a man, it must be one whose inner music harmonizes with mine, and his single desire must be that his own music be pure" - "There is no misery more profound, no depth of despair greater, than that into which lovers are plunged when they are bereft, disappointed, unrequited" - in rare cases, portals-of-entry might have freckles... click here to access article

 

the love-letter and the suggestive request (37);
 

 

29.  Personal Statement: Economic Update, August 1, 2009: The Picture of Dorian Gray: Seeing Ourselves in The Portrait of Today's Washington - civilization hangs precariously by a slender thread, that of confidence in the future; without which, people will stop planting oak trees, or building structures made of stone - the word "God" is merely a shortened version of "The Good"; all things God allows in this world are "good"; that which we myopically call "bad," in fact, is meant to serve a longer-term higher purpose; stated another way, there are certain "good" things that can be seen, and received, only by experiencing certain "bad" things - Pravda: "like the breaking of a great dam, the American descent into Marxism is happening with breath-taking speed. Putin warned Obama not to follow Marxism, it only leads to disaster; even though we suffered 70 years of this horror show, we know nothing, so let our 'wise' Anglo-Saxon fools find the folly of their own pride" - George Harrison: "I don't know how someone controlled you, bought and sold you, you were diverted, perverted, inverted, no one alerted you" - we might live long enough to experience a worldwide bursting and blossoming of enlightenment; the enflowering of previously-unknown elevated levels of human awareness and consciousness; maybe, even the next stage of our progression as a species. click here to access article

 

 

What is the greatest human misery? Is it the concentration camp horror? Those who have endured such terror say that it is not (28). Emily Dickinson suggests that the greatest misery is the threatened loss of one's own Being (28). She is correct; but only in part. What if one were to become aware of one's Spiritual Twin Soul, that Cosmic Half to one's own Being; and what if, early in life, one were to lose her? Such utter deficit might become the functional equivalent of losing one's own Being! Like a young abused child, the hapless would-be Lover, having lost her, might repress and block from mental view the pain, the terror, of such ultimate loss; and, like that child, might recall to mind such devastation only later in life, a time of greater wholeness and enlightenment (46)... memories and thoughts of her, now rising, irrepressibly rising, from the depths of the long-guarded and dark subconscious... memories and thoughts of her, now rising, inexorably rising, to uppermost levels of awareness... memories and thoughts of her, now rising, like a beautiful hot-air balloon...

 

 

30.  Personal Statement: Anger: the Soul's Blinding, the Ego's Cry of Resistance: How We Fail to Recognize the Loves of Our Lives: My Friendship with... Carolyn Kuhn Sperle - "Frank told me that he'd prayed for seven years that we could be married" - a mother's highest compliment - "Anthony said, 'You often come here to see me, but you never ask me anything,' and the other replied, It is enough to see you, Father" - Anger is the Ego's resistance to life itself. Instead of learning from the lessons that life gives to us, we want to fight, as we whine that life is unfair - Within the short span of 30 minutes I found myself in receipt of two somewhat-mystical experiences! - We can learn so much from animals. They have no egos to defend. They don't make speeches about how unfair life is. Life simply is, what it is. They make adjustments when circumstances threaten; they fight or give flight. But, when it's over, it's over. There are no egoic horror movies in the mind, endlessly looping and replaying, in which they star as the innocent victim - sometimes I can't hear what she's saying because the Message of her life, and who she is, speaks so loudly... click here to access article

 

 

Iris and Anselm, making your music pure;
why Twin-Soul Lovers cannot immediately come together (28)

 

 

31.  Personal Statement: Finding Healing From Religious Abuse: The Nature of Authentic Spiritual Authority: What I Learned From Father John Kuhn - "HE SAID WHAT! Well, we'll just see about that. You see that curb over there? I'm gonna sit on that curb, and I will be there when the Bishop arrives" - David Hedrick: "I'm a Marine Corps vet. And, like you, I did swear an oath to defend my Constitution against all enemies, foreign and domestic - Most of you do not believe in autocratic, top-down, soviet-style politics; so, why do you accept this in your spiritual life? - Paul forced Peter to move out of his comfort zone, away from long-held concepts, cherished even from childhood - the wolves will tell you, without religion, the people will run wild; that freedom will destroy us; you know, this sounds like the kind of Marxist drivel that we're getting from Washington today - He needs to rule, and she needs to be needed - how many psychological beatings will you take until you leave that abusive husband? - Abigail Adams: "I am more and more convinced that Man is a dangerous creature, and that power whether vested in many, or a few, is ever grasping - Dostoyevsky: "A man who lies to himself, and believes his own lies, becomes unable to recognize truth" - the lady beside Uncle John can't laugh hard enough! In so many of Father John's photos he stands amidst near-riotous laughter. Authentic spiritual authority is not a complicated concept; it simply means becoming a True Human Being, and encouraging others to join in the fun. click here to access article

 
every smile you fake (37);
don't you take the easy way out! (26)

 

32.  Personal Statement: Love In The AfterLife: The Mysterious World of Twin Soul Lovers: The Glowing Deep Purple: Why True Romance Will Last Forever -Steve Gunn: "A soulmate connection can only be understood at the soul level, the level of the connection itself" - shaken by the stark realism of the dream, he immediately began to doubt himself: "This is just my mind trying to make me feel better" - Whitney Houston: "I haven't been the same, since that cold November day, And the only thing I learned is that I need you desperately" - a still small voice, a vivid dream, a sense that a lover's soul-energy is nearby, a very soft yes, for those with open eyes, will be sufficient, during this time of separation, from her - "Since you cannot see yourself as the Light, when you are in the Light, we'll surround you with Darkness.You could not know Warm without Cold, Up without Down" - the greatest delights in Life come not from owning good things, but from becoming Goodness itself - your Twin Soul is your Perfect Soul-Likeness! But she is also your Perfect Mirror-Opposite! She is, to you, the Ultimate Expression of Duality, of opposing-complementing forces! - you are Complete! but you cannot know, or feel, your own Completeness... without her! - what is romantic love? it is the thrill of approaching oneness - click here to access article

 

 

"Oh! you nawty-nawty boy" (37);
wild, and beguiled, about you, that "new girl" (26)

 

 

33.  Personal Statement: Love In The AfterLife: The Story of The Fish and The Crab: Twin-Soul Love and The Purging Fire: Freedom, Only In This Case, I Covet Not: Loving According To Each Other's Liking - the story of the Crusty Fortress Crab and the Beautiful Darting Fish - the Kama Sutra passage is nothing less than a version of The Golden Rule, but set within the context of erotic love! - "It means that when you love me, I will let you love me, exactly the way you want to love me, not the way I think you should love me; and, when I love you, I will love you exactly the way you want to be loved, and not the way I think you should be loved" - Rilke wrote that the ideal relationship is one in which two partners guard and protect each other's privacy and solitude - "You know, Frances, I'm getting really tired of taking Tim to the prom!" - You say that you want to find your Twin Soul. Do ya wanna go for a ride? - "I love this person. But what if he is not my ultimate Twin Soul? If he is only a soulmate, does that mean I might not be able to love him in Summerland?" - Those whom the gods would destroy are encouraged to find their Twin Souls! - Each needs to hear, to revel, to find healing, in these words... I just want you - Both of our friends got what they wanted. That's how hell works these days - click here to access article

 

 

"freedom, only in this case, I covet not" (25);
the love story of the Fish and the Crab (33)

 

 

34.  Personal Statement: What You Need To Know Before You Die: How Your Religious Beliefs Can Hurt You For Hundreds Of Years To Come: How I Helped A Departed Relative, Trapped In Fears Of Judgment, To Go To The Light -  What is the freedom like? It is not the freedom of immorality. It is the absolute freedom to be myself, without any fear, at all, of judgment, of death, of the future, of what people think, of anything - “All their talk about the law is gas. They themselves don’t keep the law! And they are highly selective in the laws they do observe." - "Belief" isn't about forcing oneself to accept words. There is no "belief" without first having a spiritual experience - Albert Einstein: “Unthinking respect for authority is the greatest enemy of truth” - "Your Uncle has taken your advice and has passed over to the Light. He is still somewhat apprehensive, having just arrived there. Your grandmother has met him, so that is good; he has not yet seen your Dad. He is not yet sure that he has made the right decision, but, he is there now, and he will be alright." click here to access article

 

 

This towering cumulus cloud signals unstable, turbulent, atmospheric conditions; likewise, the cloud-cover generated by the Ego, the Great False Self, means trouble within; a cloaking device, covering the glory of one's own soul; a confusion, a lack of perspective, comprised of anger, arrogance, petulance, and self-pity, all of which block from view that Destined Cosmic Romantic Lover. While suffering such malady, lost in this malaise of egocentrism, he will not recognize her, discern her secret identity... even if she's close by... even if he sees her every day... even if, as Diamond Rio sang, she's only a few fence-posts away... that familiar, but quite unknown, girl next door! (36, 40)

 

 

35.  Personal Statement: The Pathological Need To Be Right: My Heated Argument With 90 Year-Old Della: Facing the Epicenter of Evil, in One's Own Heart - an Indian mystic once wryly asserted, "if you think you're so spiritual, just spend a week with your parents," or get married, you'll find out - Della can barely see; at times, suffers from dementia; can hardly walk, a mass of old bones and quivering protoplasm; yet, I became so angry when she attacked me with her half-baked ideas; why did I become so heated? - Carl Jung: "Man is the great danger! We are the origin of the coming evil!" - baptism, meant to be mere symbolism of inner cleansing, when executed by the wolves, suggests the fantastic notion that the Cosmic God, The One who inhabits all dimensions and all universes, would somehow be so impressed if your flesh had water sprinkled on it! - Erich Fromm: "the truth-sayers are so deeply hated even when they do not constitute a real threat to the established order" - Make Peace With The Unknown, For It Shall Always Be With You - The True Life, that Grand Life, is not about catching the elusive butterfly of being right. It is about living in The Mystery! an acknowledgement that growth and development is Eternal - The Good Little Boy, ever on duty; a blindness, keeping him from other duties - Eva Cassidy: "If you're lost you can look, and you will find me, I will be waiting, I will be waiting" - a friend once encouraged me that I am allowed more than one mistake, as many as I need - click here to access article

 

"all across the universe the stars are fading,
come and let me look in your eyes" (37)

 

36.  Personal Statement: The Death of The Great False Self: Nothing Left To Lose After Losing You: Developing Your Psychic Abilities, Understanding Mysteries, Becoming Love Itself - What is the Unpardonable Sin? Is God compassionate? but the Holy Spirit a little touchy? can't really take a joke too much? - Sharon almost gasped as she read the words representative of this woman's purity and spirituality: “There is something so fine, so warm, and all embracing, in your Soul that you can touch the Cosmic Mind and Heart if you aspire to Divine Love.” This comes close to perfected agape-love! - It might almost be said that the measure of the artwork's brilliance is the measure of the suffering of the artist! - "I can't live with myself anymore!" But as these words shattered the night, he suddenly realized something: "Who is this I and who is this self? Are there two of me? And, if there are, maybe one is a False Self!" - Suddenly, he is flung back, across the room, sent sprawling, as if attacked by some unseen force. Sharon would later discern that this was her Grandmother, in Spirit, defending her! - "Music makes you feel a feeling. A song makes you feel a thought" - psychic abilities are the natural and normal functionings of a mind unencumbered by fears! part of your heritage as a child of God! - once The Great False Self dies, who are you? Don't you know who you are? - click here to access article

 

"the pain, anguish, and confusion" (26, 28)

 

37.  Personal Statement: Love In The AfterLife: Part II: The Troubadour and the Wedding Song: All That You Have Is Your Soul: Woman As Transforming Fire: Do You Believe In Something You've Never Seen Before? - most romantic attraction is a short-lived chemical feast in the brain; but the real stuff is based on eternal, never-diminishing, soul energies! - strictly speaking, romantic love is not love at all - vows: an artifice, a beggarly contrivance, an external attempt to make certain a doubtful internal commitment - "her name was Ann, and I'll be damned" - the fear of rejection by women is greater than the desire to be with her! women do not know this - not True Marital Unions at all, but merely negotiated business partnerships; quid pro quo agreements, something for something; and none of this will cause the Troubadours to remain - Hypatia was torn from her chariot, stripped naked, dragged into their church, and was butchered; then they made Cyril a saint - Noah had to jar Allie out of immature concepts of right-and-wrong, ones externally imposed upon her: "What do you want!" he shouted at her - if you aren't married before the ceremony, you will never be married -Yvonne would have introduced Adam to Female; but only Eve, his Twin, could help Adam know Woman! - we have been told that you cannot separate something God has joined; but, it is equally true, you cannot join that which God has separated - St. Paul uses the phrase, if he is not "pleased to dwell with her," then, she is not bound to the marriage! - the Sacred Oneness that Twins enjoy is meant to serve as philosophical blueprint by which they, as Troubadours, will help construct a New Cosmic Society of the Loving Interconnectedness of All ... all gathered in His name! - Come and let me look in your eyes... click here to access article

 

"I'm gonna change, just mark my words!" (37)

 

38.  Personal Statement: Love In The AfterLife: The Soulmate Story of Ed and Kerri: Still A Whisper On My Lips: If I Should Meet Thee After Long Years, How Should I Greet Thee? With Silence and Tears - "We were only 13, in junior high. We had been friends for awhile. I knew that I liked Kerri, but I was very young, and very much interested in 'guy things.' Even though we were the same age, she was more mature, ahead of me" - I once told you that you need never fear the competition of the JelloGirl if you can show him The Dazzling Darkness! By this I meant to say, if you can help him to access the wonder of his own Soul, he will never forget you! and he will yearn for you as he would yearn for his own life - This most basic gift, one most powerful and efficacious for good, is the gift of one's own Self... a Self quietly at peace... consecrated to God... needing nothing from anyone else... whole and pure... ready to assist another to reach one's highest and best; but, in the meantime, enjoying its own company, in the presence of heaven - "I have grieved for Kerri for 20 years. It's been 20 years since I woke up to who she is to me. Her memory, my grief, is like a constant awareness, a pain, that never goes away. She is always there." click here to access article

 

and St. Paul said,
"We must not pursue the kind of sex
that leaves us lost and more lonely than ever,
the kind of sex that can never become One!" (37)

 

 

39.  Personal Statement: Wealth Creation and Preservation: An All-Weather Investment Strategy Offering Wealth Protection During Uncertain Times, Almost No Matter What Happens * Inflation * Deflation * Prosperity * Depression * Chaos - click here to access article

 

 

Vincent van Gogh, Starry Night (1889)

“I miss you, Darling, more and more, every day, as heaven would
miss the stars above, with every heartbeat I still think of you…” (46)

 

 

40.  Personal Statement: The Amazing Story of My Friend, World War II Hero, Silver-Star Recipient, 89 Year-Old Robert Feland: The Man They Could Not Kill. Previously published commentary has featured his great bravery and medals earned for rescuing men in a minefield - but Bob shared with me additional information, an untold aspect, one most extraordinary. His report is one of the most astonishing accounts I have ever heard! He tells me many have not believed him - but I believe him, and present to you his testimony, in print, for the first time! click here to access article

 

 

 

 

(1970) my father's farm, Napoleon, North Dakota

hey, you! watch out for that cow's business card by the gate ... awww ...
 too late ... well-l-l-l ... my mother said it's not nice to say words like that

 

 

 

 

Coming soon ...

 

41.  Personal Statement: Jesus' Artesian Well of Eternal Refreshment and the Awakening of Your Own Soul: The Suppressed Story of The Early Christians: Let Your Soul Be Your Pilot, It Will Guide You Well: Will The People Run Wild Without Religion? 

 

all that you have is your soul;
and Jesus said,
"most of you will not be able to accept this" (37)

 

42.  Personal Statement: The Meaning of Judgment on The Other Side: When the Compass Spins Between Heaven and Hell, When Your Secrets Are All Found Out: The Shivering Fetal-Positioned Self-Loathing and The Warm Light's Touch of Restorative Hope: In The AfterLife You Will Go To Where You Believe You Deserve To Go!

 

43.  Personal Statement: How To Know If Something Is Really True: Ph.D. Shopping, Selective Enquiry, Fishing Expeditions, Beginning With The Conclusion, Drawing a Bulls-Eye Around the Arrow in the Wall, Ignoring Data, and Other Games People Play When They Don't Wanna Know: Letting Go of The Myth of Certainty and Loving The Ever-Unfolding Mystery of Life!

 

 

clock ticks, I think of you,
confusion, nothing new,
you say, go slow, I've fallen behind,
I will be waiting, I will be waiting (38)

 

 

44.  Personal Statement: Things You Don't Wanna Know: Jesus Christ and a History of Atonement Theories: Can One's Virtue, Like A Credit Balance, Be Transferred To Another? What Salvation Really Means For The Perfect Soul Made In God's Image: Truly, I say to you, you will by no means get out of prison till you have paid the last penny!

 

45.  Personal Statement: The Tragic Story of a Man Named Shooter: Dr. Roger Bannister, Smashing the 4-Minute Mile, and the Misuse of Sports: the Humanities, the Liberal Arts, and Becoming a Free Person: Why The Fate of The Ball Should Not Rule Your Life! 

 

 

the Kiss of Death, the JelloGirl, 
a valuable lesson learned (26), and
how John and Mary damage each other (37)

 

 

46.  Personal Statement: Love In The AfterLife: God the Father and God the Mother: How the Ultimate Dualistic-Halves Serve as Archetypal Image of Twin-Soul Love: and Why the Yearning of Your Own Deepest Person is the Voice of the Universe Proclaiming Its Truest Cosmic Message! (to be released just before springtime 2011)

 

 

What is the reason for falling in love?
and Alrik said, "I am her Better Half";
the apostle Paul's dictum, "she is not bound!" (37)

 

 

47.  Personal Statement: Reincarnation: the Final Revenge of The Unquiet Anger: The Central Issue: Whose Memories Are They? How To Make Sure You Never Come Back To This Cold and Grey World of Loss and Unlove!

 

48.  Personal Statement: Things You Don't Wanna Know: Evolution: The Double Helix and the Unexpressed Wonder: Neither Creationism nor Gradualism Credibly Explains the Enigma of Existence! My High School English-Class Speech, the Controversy, and the Double A-Plus!

 

 

one more sunset, baby:
the cold November day by the lake,
the girl who suddenly came riding,
and the boy who learned only one thing (37)

 

49.  Personal Statement: Can Morality Be Reduced to a Set of Written Rules? Would You Rather Be a Whole Person or a Good Person? Would You Lie to the Nazi at the Door? The Good Little Girl Strikes Back! and Why Trying Very Hard to Be Virtuous... Will Make You Worse!

 

 

Oh! Darling, please believe me;
"I can't breathe, I cannot Be, until you're resting here, with me" (37)

 

 

50.  Personal Statement: Part II: Forgiveness, The Final Battle, Agape-Love In The Trenches: What I Learned From My Uncle, Father John Kuhn, The Man Who Had Reason To Be Angry: All Things Are Lessons God Would Have Me Learn: Let your pain be my sorrow, let your tears be my tears, too!

 

 

I love you, there's nothing to hide, it's better than burning inside,
I've said it, what more can I say, I love you, I will to the end,
forgive me for wanting you so, but one thing I want you to know,
I've loved you since Heaven knows when (25)

 

 

51.  Personal Statement: Love In The AfterLife:

 

 

the wound that would not heal;
will you come to me, will you stay with me,
will you be my love (26); will you ever be mine (37)

 

 

52.  Personal Statement: Wealth Creation and Preservation: The Greatest Threat Facing Retiree-Investors Today! How a 'Safe' $1 Million Bond or Annuity Portfolio Can Be Reduced to Zero In Only 30 Years! - click here to access article

 

 

"... like the frost on my window pane, where I wrote, I am you" (25)

 

 

53.  Personal Statement: The Artist As Guardian of the Heart of Humankind: Abraham Maslow and the Self-Actualized Person: How the Survivalistic Work-Ethic of My German Farming Community Sent Me Searching The World Over For Aesthetic Beauty as Portal to Truth and Light!

 

 

galaxy-class Twin-Soul love!
and Jesus said,
"what will you do when you become Enlightened?
on the day when you were One, you became Two" (37)

 

 

54.  Personal Statement: Why Most Academic Subjects, and the Modern World Itself, Find Origin with the Ancient Greeks: How Hellenism Precipitated an Unprecedented Flowering of the Human Spirit - and Why You Cannot Evolve as a Person Unless You Do It Their Way!  

 

 

"and, children, that is why,
when we come to this favorite place of our family,
the stars never fail to shine!" (63)

 

 

55.  Personal Statement: The Wisdom of Sitting Bull: What I Learned While Living Among The Lakota: Tribalism to World Citizenry, the Path of Every Awakening Human Spirit: American Holocaust and the Bloody History of All Nations: What the Enlightened Lakota Say About Their Own People!

 

 

 

only she can teach him that singular lesson of Life,
the meaning of Wholeness and Completeness,
the meaning of One Person! ... the very meaning of God! (37)

 

 

 

56.  Personal Statement: How To Earn Straight A's in Any Subject: Acquiring the Study Habits of those Dull Students, Isaac Newton and Albert Einstein: How a Distracted and Undisciplined Farm Boy, with Ordinary Intelligence, Finally Became a Top Student - and How You Can, Too! 

 

 

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"I like myself, when I am with you";
the sassy and wild provocative energy,
Woman as Transforming Fire (37)

 

 

57.  Personal Statement: How to Be Attractive and Draw Others to Yourself: Unlocking the Secret and Barred Doors in the Gothic Mansion of the Ego: Why the Fiery Crucible of Spiritual Transformation, the Long Dark Night of the Soul, Will Cause Many to Love You, Some to Hate You, but Few Will Ignore You.

 

58.  Personal Statement: Wealth Creation and Preservation: Part I: Yes! You Can Be Debt Free! How The Average American Family Can Wipe Out All of Their Debt - Credit Cards, Car Loans, and Home Mortgage - In Only 7 to 9 Years! - click here to access article

 

 

"Baby, why don't we go..."

"that afternoon delight, perfecting chemistry, defying gravity, with that girl who wanted to rejoice; perpetually-young bodies in the caressing sand, hearts aloft and afire, a One-Person slow-baking intoxication, on a thousand kokomo beaches, on a thousand pleasure planets, for a thousand years" (62)

 

 

59.  Personal Statement: Wealth Creation and Preservation: Part II: Yes! You Can Save $1 Million! How The Average American Family Can Save $1 Million In Only 15 Years! - click here to access article

 

 

"you are the harbor of my voyage, the shore and the garden,
you are the sky of my stars, and the sleep of my dreams"

 

 

60.  Personal Statement: Love In The AfterLife: The Secret Desires of Women, What They Really Want! as Revealed in 50 Candid Interviews! Kama-Sutra Romance, Having It Your Own Way! According to Your Particular and Individualized Likings! Oh! I wish you could wrap yourself around me, I'd be released in your tenderness!

 

 

"God gave me everything I want!"
just as there's nothing left to lose after losing her,
there's nothing else to desire when, finally, she's in your arms;
the perfect gift, for the man who has... nothing  (37)

 

 

61.  Personal Statement: Love In The AfterLife: The Perfect Mate - her eyes and entire visage glow with presence-of-mind quiet confidence; without this cerebral element she would be just another pretty face; with it, she is goddess-like. Her keen mind lends to her an aura of princess-like nobility. She impresses you in a natural way, without trying to impress - There is that sense about her of wanting to rejoice with me! of being so happy just to see me! that sense, for me, of complete safety, of total acceptance, of "coming Home," of mysterious familiarity - her entire essence projects an aura of authenticity. While I cherish certain long-ago memories of her, of stolen glances, studying me, even, with intense longing, she never, ever flirted with me, always authentic - and in the sacred darkness, as she receives my wordless midnight confession, absolving me of my many faults, her tender voice, like the softness of a gentle dove, a faint whispering tone of solicitous and erotic cooing, soothes my troubled spirit; and my pain becomes her own; my tears fall from her eyes; my soul's anguish issues from the heart lying next to mine... click here to access article

 

 

"Oh! I wish you could wrap yourself around me, I am gripped by this loneliness, Oh! I wish you could wrap yourself around me, I'd be released in your tenderness... so I whisper your little secret, and repeat it under my breath, I'll save it for you in my heart, in case we both forget..." (63)

 

 

62.  Personal Statement: The Awesome Power of Sacred Directed Purpose: How to call into Being the deepest desires of your Soul! Why all seemingly impossible obstacles will eventually bend to your Sanctified Targeted Intentions; and why Jesus said, Embrace this God-Life, and no Mountain will dare stand in your way! It’s as good as done! You cannot be stopped! - true prayer is an expression of one's own soul energies, one's Inner True Self, yearning to communicate with God! the highest form of prayer, that prayer without ceasing, that prayer resulting in overriding Joy, a soul-cradling sense of the Providentially-directed life, occurs when one's entire existence becomes a prayer! - How do you contain the illimited soul? How do you manage the infinite capacity? Does it go too far to say that the meaning of the Universe shall be that which you ascribe to it? Beings with infinite potentialities will require modes and venues of existence which, of necessity, must also be infinite! - click here to access article

 

63.  Personal Statement: Love In The AfterLife: Summerland: Where Dreams Come True, Part II: Long, long shall I rue thee, too deeply to tell: How You Will Yet Find Wholeness and Healing from the Devastating Losses Incurred in this World! - the old woman sat him down beside herself; and, with both of her aged arms tightly around him, to a gasping chorus of his infant-like sobs, a recapitulation of the nurturing-love he had never known during tender years, she rocked him and rocked him, and kept on whispering, to his tortured soul... I love you! - "Your body needs to be held and to hold, to be touched and to touch. None of these needs is to be despised, denied, or repressed. But you have to keep searching for your body's deeper need, the need for genuine love!" - "But, O that I were young again, and held her in my arms!" - Summerland, the World of The Yellow Rose, is highest heaven's answer to every lover's despondent prayer! Summerland is the ultimate promise of a new beginning; the ultimate second chance and fresh page; the ultimate celebration of a new life together; the ultimate mending of a rift, the conciliatory persuasion of, "Dear Sweetheart, let's just start all over again, ok?" - click here to access article

 

 

 

British historian Kenneth Clark's Civilisation, a survey of history by reviewing its art, thinks out loud about the effect on the human spirit of heroic architecture; of colossal palaces and gilt-edged villas; of the power-posturing and swooning sensuous beauty of Bernini’s Papal Rome; of the emotional appeal of Baroque ultra-grand staircases and receiving rooms;  of the visual exuberance of French and English nobles' estates - and he concludes that this "sense of grandeur is no doubt a human instinct, but, carried too far, it becomes inhuman. I wonder if a single thought that has helped forward the human spirit has ever been conceived or written down in an enormous room." There are no enormous rooms where I am right now, and I’m glad of it – here, on this mile-long dirt road, which connects Grandpa’s farm to Tom’s. I have seen some of that grandeur spoken of by Clark; and now, far away from all of that dehumanizing excess, my spirit lifts, and I understand perfectly his doubts regarding a single worthwhile thought ever having been conceived in a monstrous room. Some might say that this dirt road bisects the middle of nowhere; actually, it's downtown, the main drag of the universe, where Clark said it's all happening... a place of exhilarating personal freedom... where the mind, unfettered by the mad illusions and noise of an ephemeral world, can experience an intoxicating sense of privacy and aloneness, good company with one's own person. But, actually, there is something missing here for me... Simcan, my Arabian-Palomino... two horses, really... and, mainly, a friend who enjoys riding, to share this with...

 

 

 


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